Month: May 2008

As you might have noticed from my Tweets, I have the flu. I’m going to try to be as coherent as possible in this post. It’s not so bad anymore, but it’s still a bit hard to structure my thoughts.

It began a few days ago on Wednesday, with some coughs and feeling a bit ‘tired’. I figured it was probably because I’d been procrastinating too much, which is a state-killer, but I was wrong. When I went to bed, I started getting fever, the chills, but at the same time feeling very hot. I was balancing between sleeping and being awake, dreaming and hallucinating, sober and flu-drunk. Ugh.

The fun thing about this flu though, is that every day there’s a different symptom. The first day, starting with the night, it was just fever and headache mainly, accompanied by muscle aches throughout my whole body. Everywhere imaginable (unless you have a sick imagination). I didn’t want to leave my room, let alone the house to go to the supermarket… because that would have been a great challenge. The interesting thing was though, that when you’re ill you’re supposed to feel shitty, right? I did feel physically shitty (elephant shitty), but mentally I was very at peace. It was easier to be at peace than normally. I guess my thoughts got so incoherent that I didn’t really bother with listening to them anymore. Quite relaxing, as you can imagine if you know me well.

So the next day, it got rather different. More coughing, fever was down a lot (though at times it came back, but not so bad as the day before), but there was a new ingredient to my flu! My body was aching. A very weird type of ache at that. It was all over my torso and not as deep as the muscle aches but it felt like my skin was hurting, or just below the skin. About one and a half year ago I fell down some stairs that had a rug on there, and as I slid down the stairs it tore open my back (Woohoo! Stairslide!). The days after, it hurt to wear a shirt, because even though it was touching the wounds just lightly, it was tingly and prickly. Such a baby, aren’t I? Anyway, this time was the same, except I had no wounds. So that was quite the sensation as you can imagine. This feeling started yesterday and still hasn’t faded by the way. Oh and in the evening I got Bouwe over to have dinner (I was in no state to cook myself) and I remarked that I looked rather healthy. He agreed, but then went on to mention the black rings below my eyes which I hadn’t noticed before. At least they were not as bad as this guy’s:

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Then last night I was sleeping, dreaming a little… and suddenly I wake up with a shock. The first thing that goes through my head is “no DJ Tiësto!” This had absolutely no connection to my dream by the way. It also didn’t have a connection to my phone vibrating and hoping that it’s not DJ Tiësto who was calling me. It was completely random, like “Rosebud” or whatever your last words might be. And that scared me a bit… I don’t mind dying at some point, but I don’t want my last words or thoughts to be something as retarded as “no DJ Tiësto!” I got hit by a car before and they say your life flashes by in front of you in these situations… Well, it didn’t. My mind was very clear. The single thought going through my head was “shit!” Then I woke up on the road.
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So today it’s sore throat day. Some flu symptoms are still present but very manageable. I’m going to the supermarket today (by myself, hell yeah), do some school work, plus if I’m a nice boy and do all my chores I’ll treat myself to some baklava. Wooh. Sugar overdosing is fun!
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So yeah, to all friends and family reading this: don’t worry, I’m doing ok again. No, I will not go to the doctor. Yes, I am eating healthy. Thanks for your concern. Have a nice weekend!
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